rambling

[ryuucel]

Art is truly amazing. All forms. I had my impressionism midterm today which was an exam and it's just like. I love art. My favorite artist of all time is Mary Cassatt. I can recognize her art anywhere. The themes she incorporates are so incredible. The male gaze, impatience of a child, a mother and daughter's bond, etc. I just love her so much. I also love Morisot. She isn't my favorite and there are others I like more, but her loose brushstrokes and the way you can see her hand is amazing. I love when an artist keeps it to where you can see exactly what they did. Academic artwork is beautiful too, but it cannot compare to human meddling. Seeing what they did is truly wonderful. And writing, I love literature despite not reading many things. I love hearing what other people come up with. It makes me think. Today I had my writing club and some others shared what they wrote, and it was just beautiful. Even if it isn't phenomenal, it's something someone created, and I can't get over it. People create and create and create everyday all the time and it honestly feels hard to catch up with sometimes. I want to create too. I want to have others see my creations too. I want to create and be praised for what I created. Unfortunately, I am not very good at creating. I struggle and fall behind and am never satisfied with my work. It doesn't stop me from trying. One day I will create beautiful things. I think this post is a beautiful thing, too. I love writing. and drawing. and painting. and listening to others' stories. I love the human desire to share. Humans are beautiful.

On a more serious note, my school is setting up an organization for Israel. I don't want to get political on here, but it is just frustrating. I am a single person, and I cannot figure out what I should do. I feel powerless in all of this. It's just frustrating seeing my school side with Israel when the people who do side are imperialists and colonizers. The Palestinian resistance is not wrong, yet they equate it with what the oppressor is doing to them. I just don't understand how you can see this all happening and still decide to side with Israel. It's vile to me. And there isn't something I, a single person, can do. If I speak out against this, nothing will change. I just don't get why this is so difficult for everyone to comprehend. I don't know. I just wish I knew how to do something.

I'm also here to be a hater. I CANNOT stand this guy named leo. I CAN'T. I feel like there's so much to say and so little at the same time. He's just... weird. I don't think he should be that old having friends that young. And he's incredibly rude and self centered to the point I can't even defend him and say everyone's like that. It's incessant and I just. I can't do it. I feel crazy that no one else thinks this about him. Well, that's not true I have a mutual who apparently had beef with him and his friend but they haven't told me why!!! I don't want to be alone in this please!!!!

I want to start writing more. I don't want to steal bfoomf's (best friend oomf) thing and it certainly wouldn't get to that degree, but I enjoy writing. More than I thought. And again I'm not very good at it and I probably wouldn't ever feel comfortable enough sharing anything because I set impossibly high standards for myself but everytime I write something I feel joy. And it isn't something I have to view the bigger picture on and dislike. And I am able to edit something I don't like whenever I want. With painting and drawing, it's hard to edit something once you've done it. At least on paper. Paint cannot be changed once painted and it has ended up with many unhappy results. But with writing in my google docs, I can edit it to my heart's content. Maybe I will. I'll just have to figure out what to write about. I don't have many ideas since my imagination is rather small. I don't know. I'd love to talk about this with someone but I'm not sure who. I feel a little intimidated to talk about this with bfoomf and no one else I know is as into it. I dunnoooo I will figure something out. Maybe one of my professors like writing. I think I enjoy it when it isn't for school. It's hard for me to write things for school since it wasn't something I decided on my own.

Comments

[mitzishark]

barging into your blog hi sorry but MARY CASSATT!!! I took an art history course on a whim a couple years ago, and she has forever stayed in the back of my mind since.. I'm so so in love with the way she paints, and how she paints women Doing rather than just Being (like a lot of her male impressionist peers would) but I was always so enamoured most of all by her Loge series of paintings (think In The Loge/At The Opera, Woman With A Pearl Necklace In A Loge, etc.).. I love so much how she turns her gaze to the observer and how she captures that fleeting moment of observing someone else. hands down my favourite impressionist.

thanks for reminding me about her. I love those paintings so much
art (in all forms!!) is so incredible

[ryuucel]

IM SO LATE TO SEEING THIS BUT IN THE LOGE WAS ONE OF MY FAVORITES. i'm currently recreating it for my impressionism class. my all time favorite of hers though is breakfast in bed. it reminds me of me and my mother. another female impressionist at the time is morisot !! she also paints women (mostly if not all her family) doing instead of being. degas, although he had some other problematic things about him, also painted women doing. he was especially interested in ballerinas. he has many paintings showing women performing and women rehearsing and shows them in their most natural state.

[mitzishark]

OHHHH you're so right breakfast in bed is a beautiful piece! it's always wonderful to see reflections of yourself and your own experiences in creations made decades ago. degas' ballerinas are always so beautifully captured too, and i'm not too familiar with much of morisot's work, but it's all gorgeous from what i'm seeing with a quick google search - i'll have to look more into her stuff :O

also !! if you're ever comfortable sharing your recreation of in the loge, i would LOVE to see it!! i hope you have fun with it regardless!

[lesbocannibal]

The Lady will take her silly hat (third-person posting) off for a moment for a serious message. I really feel you on the Israel thing, my school's been going hard with the pro-Israel messaging too. I'm feeling much the same way but have been trying to get involved with organizing and protests, at least on-campus. I don't feel like I can change anything about the actual situation in Gaza, but I DO feel like I can protest the way my school is handling it and the actual stuff on campus, so that's what I've been focusing on. Lots of love to you.

[ryuucel]

Yes, exactly! I've been figuring out which organizations on campus have been doing things for Palestine and getting involved. I know I alone can't end a genocide but if I can at least make enough people aware, I'm hoping that'll make a change.