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It makes me upset how much they neutered Heathers the Musical. After last night i keep getting Veronica's "I think that's what they call third base!" stuck in my head. In the original movie, that scene takes place at a college frat party where older men creep on Veronica and Chandler, fully aware of and drawing attention to how they're underage. But in the musical it's a goofy high school house party where everyone is goofing off and having fun and nothing predatory is happening. This is the first of many examples of how much they butchered the movie.

Other things that piss me off:

• Veronica getting changed to be a better person, shown as an idealist seduced by the promise of the Heathers' protection, instead of someone who made choices to get where she is. 
• Veronica being changed to be poor instead of affluent. This is also because they need Veronica and JD to be black-and-white morality, so Veronica has to be a Sympathetic Person all around. 
• Martha Dunnstock and Betty Finn are conflated, undermining Veronica's character development. Yes, reconnecting with an old friend is a good thing to show, but the whole point of Veronica making friends with Martha is to show that she's now willing to make an effort to get to know the bottom rung of high school society. True kindness showed to a stranger who you're not biased towards. 
• "Fight For Me" is just a really bad song in general, and in this song, JD beats up Kurt and Ram instead of shooting at them. 
• For some reason JD's comments about convenience stores and buying a Slurpee for Veronica gets expanded to an entire fucking song where he says Slurpees are better than cocaine??? It's like the fandomization favorite food curse but 10x worse because it's an official adaptation. 

Yesterday was my birthday! The big 20, actually.

I had an amazing birthday. Every year, I wear a cute little tiara and cake earrings and dress up in a classic Sewa way. The tiara is something I don’t usually wear though, so I get comments on it, and then I get to say that it is my birthday! So a lot of people wished me happy birthday. The nicest lady at the swipe-in station also hunted me down to give me a plate that had a little foil sculpture of a birthday cake on it and strawberries around it! It was so cute. Plus I got nice messages on Discord.

Plus some birthday gifts. My gf bought me something from the vewn online store but won’t tell me what it was! I’m sooo impatient… and also my friend drew a little Vesper doodle for me :)

And umm… the best birthday gifts… first of all I made out with a cute alt boy in an empty theater and it was sooooo crazy I felt like I was in a movie. Second of all, that friend that drew Vesper for me came back after a long hiatus from Discord! They have this tendency to go offline for long periods of time unannounced and it strained our relationship because I was taking it personally and thinking they were abandoning me. (Thanks, abandonment issues!). But we apologized to each other, no hard feelings, and now I think they’re ready to come back since they’re happier with their own life now!!!

This stupid fucking meowbahh video got me thinking. (She showed the Bible and the Quran and then basically said “I don’t believe any of it~” and showed her own pink Meowbahh Bible with pink cat ears. I think meowbahh got cancelled or something i dont know.)

I love being an antitheist. I align myself with New Atheism… kind of. I don’t really read their books and I’m not a fan of the Islamophobia they have going on, although i DO dislike Islam. I just dislike theistic religions in general. I don’t think Muslims or Jews should be discriminated against by their religion, especially because they’ve been oppressed by the Big Bad, Christianity. I think ultimately, in the current political climate, it’s better for me not to be loud about how much I dislike the ideologies that have been used as a cudgel for evil. My ire is usually trained on Abrahamic religions and ESPECIALLY Christianity, but I still hate all religion in the way that I think “spirituality” and “faith” are fucking shams. You people are stupid. Wake up.

To be honest, I talk about antitheism saving me from the clutches of Christianity the same way Christians talk about Jesus saving them. I was raised as an evangelical Baptist. Christianity pretty much gives you the tools to refuse the facts and it is so, so hard to break out of that mindset. I likened it to a scale: on the left side, all of the experts and scientists and activists and even other Christian leaders in the world, telling me that being gay is okay. On the right side, the tiniest scrap of Christian ideology that aligns with my preexisting beliefs. I could just turn my back on all of that, and say the devil is testing me. No matter how much I piled on the scale, I still had to avoid looking at Christian rhetoric because literally the smallest things would make me wonder if I was going to hell and I would get really dysregulated over it. But I ended up transitioning to being an antitheist (it went agnostic -> atheist -> antitheist) and now THAT’s what I build my identity around, NOT being ex-christian. And it really did help me to say, FUCK religion! Religion sucks! It’s irrational, it teaches you to ignore facts and logic, I simply don’t believe that we are anything more than this life. And Christianity specifically is deeply evil. I try my best to love the Christian and hate the Church (see what I did there?) when I like them as a person otherwise but nnnope I still resent them for how they talk to me sometimes.

Also, you can’t fucking rehabilitate these religions. Spare your breath talking about how Jesus was a Middle-Eastern man who sat with prostitutes and hated church greed and wanted liberation of minorities or whatever. You still can’t erase the disgusting legacy of the Church, and how it continues to abuse today. And for fuck’s sake, stop saying the homophobes aren’t “real” Christians! Ever heard of the “no true Scotsman” fantasy? That’s literally you thats what you sound like. Embarrassing!